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	2007.07.02 14.48 I am at work and I just got this overwhelming surge of sadness. But not for me. For other people in my life who have it much harder than I do right now. I never knew many people who had it harder than me growing up but I am pretty content with the life I lead right now and where that life is headed. Now is the time for selflessness and all I want to do is help. Everyone.



	2007.05.30 18.07 I miss anything and everything I possibly could about being at Smith. Sucks.



	2006.12.27 19.40 important. I plan on getting involved in this/learning more about/supporting it. http://evolveuniversal.com/ http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=18134620 http://www.naimakbar.com/ When you pray, move your feet I heart my life.



	2006.12.14 00.58 Whoa. They have changed livejournal around since I last wrote in it. Weird. Anyway, I do feel as though I am outgrowing livejournal. I look back and realize how public I let everything be. Everything I was feeling, no matter how angry, sad, suicidal, lost, etc. Also, looking back, I always had a plethora of away messages to express every mood. Not only am I not on AIM all that much anymore, but my away messages are never personal. I am sure I was so open for a reason. I needed to vent, let other people know my pain, make it real maybe. Or to justify it. I don't know. Either way, I realize that is not who I am anymore. I can keep things to myself. I can work through things myself. I can think before being just....irrational. I don't need validation from other people. I can own what I say, do, and think. It is a great feeling. I know I started out the year with really high hopes. And I can honestly say that I had a damn good year. Not what I expected, but still a good year. And recently, I have made what I feel are like a lot of life-changing desicions. I spent 7 months with an amazing girl. We broke up about 3 weeks ago. I decided we needed to break up. There were definite issues we had, but underlying it all was just that I was not in it the way she was. I wanted to be, of course. But I am not really one to beat myself up over things out of my control. I wasn't (am not) ready to settle down and I knew I wasn't being fair to her. I honestly still have a lot of issues I want to work through. Mainly, being so angry about certiain things in my past and the fact that I always try to maintain distance/control in my relationships. I want to be a better person. I want to go on a quest for self-actualization. For the FIRST time, I feel strong enough to be alone. It isn't scary (ok well sometimes it is). It isn't lonely. And it feels good. I feel healthy and happy. The break up with her was not prolonged, confusing, or messy. I didn't fall back into an exes arms, or immediately find someone new. I am being me. Just me. Also, I have decided to take a year off before going to grad school. I was unsure what I wanted to do and decided only applying to Smith grad school would be selling myself short. I am going to be teaching preschool in Somerville. Possibly getting my teachers liscence and being a lead teacher for a year. Living in Boston (possibly with Megan, Celeste, and Nikki) and doing things the right way. Studying and taking the GREs, searching numerous grad school programs and applying effectively. I realized I can simply not imagine a life without children and if that means making significantly less money than I potentially could, then so be it. When I go back I would like to get a degree in Early Childhood Education/Early Childhood Special Ed. Teachers College at Columbia University in NYC has a great program and it is like the best of the best. I have my eyes set on it. Also, I'll be getting a $2.25 raise and benefits. I definitely feel like I make a good desicion to get some real life experience before jumping into the unknown. I turn 22 in 3 days. Unbelievable.



	2006.11.29 03.45 maybe...... i'm drunk. or slightly intoxicated. either way, i can say things are going to be ok. i have a plan. i'm single. and things are looking up. a comprehensive update coming soon. maybe. i'm constantly debating whether livejournal is the dumbest creation ever or a meaningful mode of expression..... we'll see i guess.



	2006.09.20 16.06 the caps is not accidental. ME AND BRAD SHOULD GET PAID MORE THAN ALL YOU BITCHES. That is all. AMEN.



	2006.09.10 19.29 ok. if you still read this, please tell your girlfriend not to message me on myspace. i would tell her this myself if i didn't think it was a huge waste of my time and energy and i would contact you to ask you but frankly i don't even want to crack open any window of communication with you.... so this is my message: if she chooses to believe all the lies you tell her, then that is great. fabulous. i am so happy that you finally found someone gullible enough to believe the pure shit that comes out of your mouth. now leave me alone. a frying pan? nice touch. hilarious, really.



	2006.08.31 00.12 bored. sooooooo i haven't written a real entry in a very long time.... i think the scarcity of my entries is a really good sign though....since i always tend to update more when things are going wrong.... despite my last few posts, my summer was AMAZING. i spent it with an amazing girl, amazing friends, at an amazing job, in an amazing city. i really couldn't have asked for anything more. i had a lot of money because of scamming Smith....telling them I was doing an internship when I really wasn't and getting $1800.... i cant even begin to list all the shit i did, bars i went to, restaurants i ate at, etc etc. i explored boston. i sucked at keeping in touch with school friends. but thats nothing new. i am ready for school. my senior year is going to kick ass. living with keely, celeste, and megan. i'm pretty sure theres never been cooler tenants all living in the same apt. i'm 99% sure i'll be applying early decision to the smith school for social work.....its a really rigorous 27 month program but it sounds like an opportunity i just can't pass up....and i've heard it's pretty easy to get in if you went to undergrad at smith....so wish me luck. alright. vague. but an update. time for bed. <3



	2006.07.25 22.13 you know...... in the day to day everything is fine.... but when it comes to the serious stuff its definitely not fine...it hasnt been fine for a long time....and i dont know if it ever will be.... is this as good as it gets? i am just tired of feeling so angry..... the anger itself exhausts me and so does attempting to keep myself busy enough to never acknowledge it... i don't even know where to start....



	2006.04.18 03.39 can't sleep.... I've been doing a lot of thinking....too much for comfort... There is so much imagery in my head that I just don't know how to process. A bloody nose. "Spankings." A pulled rifle. An unwanted encounter. A chunk of my mothers hair in my hand. Being dragged across a hardwood floor. Smashed knick knacks. A cut up arm. Bruises on my hip. It's no wonder I feel so angry all the time. My history. Violence. Threatened. Physical. Sexual. All real. All vivid. I've been thinking about healing. How, when. Mostly how. My silence. My kids. My humor. All my protection, my crutch. My saving grace. I have seen too much. But I haven't even really looked. To examine and redefine now, the thought, paralyzing. To not, also, paralyzing. Because I have realized that everytime I meet someone who thinks I am amazing all it does is remind me of how unamazing I actually am. And how stagnant. Maybe this is why I do everything aggresively, violently. It's all I know.... And without ordeals I am reminded of my weaknesses. All I know is I'm hanging onto anger and it's weighing me down. Wasted energy is inefficient and I hate inefficiency. But how do you release your anger that is directed towards others when doing so makes you angry with yourself? It is a war I just do not know how to fight. An eye for an eye leaves the whole world blind. I have seen too much but feel like I can't see anything at all. Not a goddamned thing.....



	2006.04.09 01.45 oh you know.....to not think... 1) Are you in a relationship or single? single 2) Are you happy with where you are? sure 3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast? i hate how they ask this question like meeting the right person happens all the time... 4) Have you ever had your heart broken? oh yes and then stomped on... 5) What do you think of online dating? meeting people is definitely ok....having an entire relationship online? hell no. 6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you? if you never have labels, you never have cheating.... 7) Do you want children? absolutely 8) How many? As many as I can financially support.... 9) Would you consider adoption? definitely 10) If somebody liked you right now, would you get with them? isn't it more important how i feel about them?? i mean, i don't get with people just cause they like me... 11) Do you enjoy playing hard to get? oh i don't have to play is the thing.... 12) Do you believe love at first sight exists? bitch, please. 13) Are you romantic? not in the least... 14) Do you believe that you can change someone? I believe you can inspire change.... 15) If you could get married anywhere, if money was not an object, where would it be? no fucking clue... 16) Fuck buddies - good or bad? um you know....the good of fuck buddies is usually shortlived... 17) Do you give in easily when you're fighting? i'm waaaay too stubborn 18) Do you have feelings for someone right now? of course 19) Have you ever wished you could have had someone but you messed that up? no 20) Have you broken a heart? yes, unfortunatly...:( 21) What would happen if you came home and found another person in bed with your bf/gf? R Kellys Urban Opera. Trapped in the Closet 22) Would you ever fight somebody over your significant other? any excuse for a girlfight.... 23) What would you say to your ex? either i'm sorry and i miss you, eat shit and die, or i love you dummy depending on the ex...



	2006.02.19 23.53 lame-o. as stupid as it is, i feel like livejournal is one, if not the only, place i can be emo... i want to fall in love.... like honestly...at this point i feel like i don't even care if it's mutual..... i want to find something, ONE thing, ONE person, that satisfies me fully... i am sick of extracting bits and pieces i am sick of feeling like i'm settling and i am sick of second guessing..... i want to fall in love so hard that the risk of it all crashing down around me is worth it... i think mostly i just need it to happen in order to see if i am actually even capable of it... because every day it just gets easier to tell myself i'm not....



	2006.01.30 01.20 my month. -got arrested -got a 200 dollar speeding ticket -got beat up -missed three days of work because of it -lost my voice for three days -missed 2 more days of work because of that -yeast infection -no more girlfriend what else could go wrong? oh....well i drove to the laundromat and my car wouldn't start when i got back in it....thank god all it needed was oil. i thought i was going to have a nervous breakdown. court tomorrow. oh boy.



	2006.01.22 18.12 i am steel..... i just feel like i am floundering....lost..... i have no idea what i'm doing.... this break is not what i expected it to be.... i am sorry to anyone and everyone i have neglected......at this point i have to force myself to stay awake, shower, and just take care of myself in general without losing my mind.... "my distraction's my defense against this lack of inspiration against this slow leak deflation...."



	2006.01.03 10.34 i jinxed myself. so my new years resolution last year was to stay out of trouble.....and i filled out a survey on december 4th and said so far so good. so of course, i get in major trouble AFTER that. i'm not going to get into it on here but the commonwealth of massachusetts is pressing charges on both me and deneen because of a domestic dispute. the details at this point are irrelevant. all i care about is ending this as quickly as possible so i can have peace of mind...... all i know is that both of our bodies are aching still, jail is NOT fun, and i have to miss the first day of classes for my court date on January 30th. i haven't felt quite "me" since last tuesday night. everyone thinks i should be pissed and out for revenge but i'm not and i don't feel that way at all. i'm just sad mostly. as much as other people don't understand the realtionship deneen and i have i do love her and yes, still do, as crazy as that may be..... she is dramatic, annoys the shit out of me, drinks too much, lies, and i still love her. not in a romantic way....there's just emotion there that isn't cut and dry, black or white or "simple" like love tends to be.... i'm not pleased with her, i'm not pleased with myself.....but i'm doing ok i guess.... i heard this last night in a movie: "vengeance is the lazy form of grief." last year when shit went down at the 313 and i got kicked out did i feel better? no. did it help me "get over" deneen? no. was i lucky that there were no charges? aboslutely. i just feel like i've been fighting back the urge to cry for about a week now and i can't articulate exactly why.....it's just sad, unfortunate, disappointing, and it hurts.....



	2005.12.04 20.27 gwen said 2005 would be my year...... Why I love Brad. This is from last December: let's not fuck in 2005 ok? deal. happy new year you ugly nigga. This year... 1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before? saw Jill Scott, had strap-on sex, Irish car bombs, dated an Asian, worked a mon-fri 9-5 job, had someone escorted off my property (aka Smith Campus), used a fake I.D., wrote a 15 page paper (well i'm in the process but it will be done before the new year), had a one n ight stand, saw Head Automatica, plus tons more I'm sure.... 2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? one was staying out of trouble. i did that!!! ok so i got kicked out of the 313 again for being drunk but that's it!! lol. two was more gym time. def didn't do that. three was trying harder in school. i always try hard. i don't know why i even said that. four was working on my self-esteem. and i have come SUCH a along way with that...emotionally anyway..physically....well. see resolution two. 3. Did anyone close to you give birth? she isn't that close to me but Jen had little Annabelle:) 4. Did anyone close to you die? no. 5. What countries did you visit? none 6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005? well for most of the year i did not have a gf. i have one now and i think i would like to keep her next year as well. 7. What dates from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? http://www.livejournal.com/users/concertina822/115305.html 8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? remaining single, never settling, and my job:) 9. What was your biggest failure? can't think of one.... 10. Did you suffer illness or injury? don't think so... 11. What was the best thing you bought/Received? bought? jill scott, tori amos, and charlotte martin tickets received? new friends, closer friendships, and a gf:) 12. Whose behavior merited celebration? mine. 13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? girls 14. Where did most of your money go? who fuckin knows. Keno probably. LOL. 15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? living with Chris for the summer and working with my kids:) 16. What song(s) will always remind you of 2005? Pon de Replay by Rihanna, Dontcha by the PussyCatDolls, the new Jill Scott album, Head Automatica, that FallOut Boy Song and that Secret Lives of the Freemasons song. Chris knows what I'm talking about. 17. Compared to this time last year, are you: a) happier or sadder? happier b) thinner or fatter? fatter. but only cause i was on the "my life is falling apart diet" at this time last year. c) richer or poorer? same prob. 18. What do you wish you'd done more of? mmm nothing.... 19. What do you wish you'd done less of? mmm nothing.... 20. How will you be spending Christmas? ugh family dinner unfortunately...but mom and sister time mostly. 21. Did you fall in love in 2005? um. the year's not over YET. 22. How many one-night stands? 1 23. What was your favorite TV program? America's Next Top Model, American Idol, Real World, Making the Band 3, Celebrity Fit Club, and I'm sure I could go on... 24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? no 25. What was the best book you read? THE DA VINCI CODE 26. What was your greatest musical discovery? miri ben-ari prob 27. What did you want and get? a fabulous gf 28. What did you want and not get? a better car. 29. What were your favorite films of this year? SAW 2!!! Rent. Diary of a Mad Black Woman, and i'm sure more i just can't remember. 30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? oh. well it's in 12 days. I'm turning 21. so i'll prob have no recollection of it. 31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? more money. 32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005? um....i started wearing real bras!! concept = 2 boobs. 33. What kept you sane? chris, my job, school, music 34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? KELLY CLARKSON 35. What political issue stirred you the most? hurricane katrina. took my fucking name bitches. 36. Who did you miss? right now i miss amber cause i havent seen her since the beginning of august. 37. Who was the best new person you met? kati definitely but i met so many great people....amber<3 jen you dyke<3 38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005: don't take life too seriously, you'll never get out alive. THANKS VAN WILDER.



	2005.11.27 15.59 fuck bangor, ME. So.....I bought a round trip GREYHOUND ticket from South Station to Bangor and back..... Now...you may be under the impression that the dates and/or times on your bus ticket matter but guess what kids? They don't. Also, you may think the company name printed on your ticket matters but again, it does not. All bus tickets are basically on a first come, first serve basis. Now, knowing this.....I showed up almost a full 2 hours early to catch the 3:15 bus from the Concord Trailway Station back to Boston... They told me that they had 3 buses going to Boston and that I could upgrade my ticket to an actual Concord Trailway one so I would have priority but that they really didn't think I would need to so I didn't bother. (Question 1: If all tickets are accepted at all different companies...how is an "upgrade" even possible?? I mean, shouldn't prices be the same if tickets are supposedly interchangable?? Stupid. Also, I should have realized I would have problems when it took ALL THREE of them to figure out an upgrade would cost 6 dollars if I chose to get one.) So, I'm sitting reading as more and more people start to pile in and/or wait outside (the bangor station is TINY) and the first bus comes and there is an anouncement that people headed to Portland, ME and Logan Airport ONLY can now board.... I'm getting nervous though because there are a lot of people there so I go up and check to see if they think I'm still going to be ok.....I asked if there was going to be a third bus coming in. The lady said, "WE ARE ACTING ACCORDINGLY." (Question 2: What the FUCK does that even mean? Not only does that not answer the question I asked, but it really doesn't answer any question.) But she reassured me everyone would get on. So I sat back down....more and more people show up, there's still no third bus and it's like 3:05. I go back up and ask if I'm going to be able to get on a bus. The same lady who was so informative and helpful when she told me they were acting accordingly, told me that even if I upgraded now I'd probably still have to wait. So I'm like, "well are you keeping a headcount?" and she just goes, "YES." Oh ok thanks CAUSE I WAS JUST CURIOUS. No bitch, that means, count the goddamn seats, count the goddamn people and if there's a discrepancy LET ME KNOW SO I WON'T BE SITTING AT THE BUS STATION FOR NO REASON. I sit back down and call my mom....the Greyhound bus foro Boston doesn't leave until 6:45 so I figured I'd wait to see if the third bus would, in fact, show up. I'm sitting there and another lady goes, "So are all you people here waiting for the bus to Caribou?" and me and this girl next to me are like "no, we're going to South Station" and shes like "Oh then you need to be out there (and points outside) figuring out which bus to load." OH FUNNY I THOUGHT THAT WAS YOUR JOB TO MAKE AN ANOUNCEMENT ABOUT BOARDING BUSES. So I go out and the buses are FULL and am told a third bus is not coming. Great. If I had known buses were not only boarding for Portland and Logan I could have gotten on a fucking bus. So now, I am in Maine. I think for another night. I could leave Greyhound at 6:45 but that would get me into South Station at 11:30...then i could drive home until 2 in the morning or sleep over but have to get up at 8 to go to class and neither of those sound very appealing so I am staying in Maine to catch a bus tomorrow..... Stupid assholes.



	2005.11.25 00.36 Gobbledy Gook. HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!! Soooo... another update. Life is only getting better. I am super super super stressed out about school. I have a 15 page paper due on December 8th and it makes me nauseous to even really think about it....but, honestly, the fact that i can stress this much about school and that's all i have to worry about for once in my life is so great that i feel bad even bitching a little bit..... Pre-thanksgiving at Chris's was OBVIOUSLY a good time. Until some stupid cunt started some drama. But it was still fine and I think everything is cool now.....certain people are just wastes of space....and it is rare that i really hate someone who hasn't directly wronged me but this bitch needs to GO......i almost got fiesty.... I saw Rent today. GREAT. I mean....i've only seen the stage version twice.....and both were over 2 years ago....so my memory of it was foggy but i think it stayed pretty close to the stage version...i dunno....i cried a whole lot.... Me, my mom, and my sister went to Ground Round for Thanksgiving. Gotta love it. It's official with the lady now. My girlfriend Kati Surprenant<3 She is great. She came to pre-thanksgiving to meet everyone and so far has gotten stellar reviews:) I am in Maine now and I miss her. It's so stupid. Lol. I see her like everyday....i'm such a lesbian. I mean, we're just real good at being girlfriends. I was at her house looking through her DVDs and saw You Got Served which i obviously was excited about and she's like "oh, not only do i have you got served but i have you got served: take it to the streets, learn the dance moves DVD" WHAT?! Who has that. We obviously put it in and learned some moves.....we eat granola bars and watch cop chases...i mean it's unbelievable how much i like this girl and how well we work....she drew me a picture, she made me a card, she made me a collage, she does cute things for me....i tell her she's not real all the time cause i feel like she just can't be. she's too great.....ok enough gushy shit. Alright time for bed. Peace nigguhs.



	2005.11.04 16.22 la la la. It's been a while since a real update. Classes = good. grades are fine. got a B- on my first theories of society paper which i'm not too happy about but hey....it's not a C and that class is pretty hard. I fucking OWN statistics. I got a 95 on my midterm. It will be good for my G.P.A. so that is nice. Spanish is spanish. My government seminar is really intense and I have to write a 15-20 page paper at the end of it so I'm sort of tweaking out but I'll obviously get it done..... Friends = amazing. getting closer to people everyday. Celeste is really great and we've been hanging out a lot. she's so bad-ass. lol. everyone goes bowling on Thursdays....we eat every meal together....we play games together. we smoked with gwens mom together...lol. it's really great. Keely is my other half. as always. i love having her across the hall. i miss chris and brad. Family = alright. i'm worried about some shit. but i'm trying to reach out. i'm excited for turkey day. you know....thanksgiving from Shaws because my mother does NOT cook. it's great and classy cause we're just like that.... Work = fine. i'm washing dishes 2 nights a week and working doorcheck one day during lunch. washing dishes sucks but i look damn sexy in my apron. duh. whenever i get the chance i go home to work in Somerville. cause i looooooove my kids obviously. and randomly the Wolfs in town ask me to babysit Lior and Ezra. i'm pretty broke because payroll was fucked up and i won't get a check form Smith for another 2.5 weeks...but chris is reimbursing me $300 from the summer so SCORE. Girls = i met one. she rocks. and she likes me. and my friends love her. and i love her friends. her friends love me. we are silly and draw on each other with green Sharpie at boring lectures. she is adorable, smart, and genuine. i totally scored guys. i dressed up as Hurricane Katrina for Halloween. I had a yellow poncho on with debris duck taped all over it and my hair all disheveled. it was priceless. megan was a care bear, keely was 80s, and CELESTE WAS GWEN. it was sooo freaky she looked just like her. tonight i get to see rufus wainwright FOR FREE because i am ushering at The Calvin. Me, megan, mariita, celeste, and gwen are all going. i am psyched. i am just...speechless about life right now. it is so close to perfect. a year ago i wouldn't even have been able to fathom feeling so content....i feel like i am just beaming all the time....people keep telling me i look really good....it's like....when you're truly happy it just radiates. i look beautiful because i feel beautiful. it's bananas. b-a-n-a-n-a-s. ok quick nap before dinner. then RUFUS. don't hate.



	2005.10.27 02.58 today. minus losing my OneCard, today was amazing.



	2005.10.13 22.31 nice and good. life is good. that much i can definitely say. a little more money wouldn't hurt....but hey.....it's all good. busy busy busy.



	2005.09.27 16.42 seriously. i'm smart. and funny. holler. beyond BY n U: whats in chicago? YesAnastasia822: the university of chicago beyond BY n U: are you going there after? YesAnastasia822: i dunno im def looking into it YesAnastasia822: it has an AMAZING soc dept YesAnastasia822: but id have to want to get my PhD in sociology YesAnastasia822: or i could go for a master in something else beyond BY n U: god your great YesAnastasia822: public policy or soemthing beyond BY n U: smart gurls make me wet YesAnastasia822: haha YesAnastasia822: i declared my minor today YesAnastasia822: and started talking about writing a thesis next year YesAnastasia822: its so scary beyond BY n U: but its not only being smart it having ambition too beyond BY n U: good ness YesAnastasia822: being smart is pretty useless unless you have ambition thoug isnt it? YesAnastasia822: yeah prob something about public policy, urban development blah blah blah and its effects on children beyond BY n U: that why they go together beyond BY n U: like how some people need both outer and inner stimulation to have an orgasm beyond BY n U: unless one is stronger than the other YesAnastasia822: hahaha YesAnastasia822: nice analogy beyond BY n U: i know beyond BY n U: tehheee YesAnastasia822: ha i just sort of though of another one beyond BY n U: k go YesAnastasia822: like being smart without ambition is sort of like licking all around the right spot but never finding it YesAnastasia822: nice.....but pretty pointless and dissapointing YesAnastasia822: i like that anything can relate to sex beyond BY n U: lol beyond BY n U: LOL beyond BY n U: ohhh czu you sag are such sex fiends beyond BY n U: slampigs YesAnastasia822: hah so theres this wicked wicked annoying girl in my spn class beyond BY n U: lol beyond BY n U: yea YesAnastasia822: and today i was telling my friend dezarai that i really wanna bring a squirt gun to class and just shoot her with water everytime she talks and then hide it so she has no idea where its coming from YesAnastasia822: or like just throw my pen at her one day and pretend it was an accident YesAnastasia822: seriously this girls spanish accent is so bad it makes me sound mexican beyond BY n U: ohh lord beyond BY n U: LOL



	2005.09.20 23.38 hot for teacher. what if i got a PhD in sociology and/or public/social policy?? how HOT would that be....? i was just looking at grad schools. i'll prob apply like everywhere around boston and at the university of chicago. i know it seems random but they have the oldest and probably one of the most well-known sociology departments around. it basically was where urban sociology was founded. i mean, i feel like it would be perfect for me....maybe if i have enough money during spring break/summer i can actually go check it out.... hmmmmm.......



	2005.09.16 22.06 omg. one shot in. not even drunk. public safety shows up. i snuck into someones room across the hall. i have no idea where i am or when i can get out. this is like a Lifetime movie or something. oh god.



	2005.09.16 00.29 bored, actually DONE my homework, and not tired yet..... I really really really really really really really times infinity love being at/in college. I love learning. I love reading. I love my friends. I love Divas. I love themed parties. I love meeting new people, new teachers, etc. I love the scenery. I love the town. Oh man. Love. So. Spanish 120. SO MUCH WORK. holy f. I've already had to write like 1.5 comps, i have homework everyday, and i don't really remember all that much cause i didn't use it for 4 straight months. oh and the books were 175 DOLLARS JUST for this class. lame.com Soc 201. Evaluating Information. stats. scary. but definitely helpful in order to be a more critical reader/learner/sociologist/whatever. annnnnnnnnd my teacher has mad tattoos and a gauged septum piercing and i had a class with her last year. hot. Soc 250. Theories of Society. my teacher is psychotic and i love him. first day of class he asks for a volunteer. i go up front. he puts a badin of water on the table, gets up, and steps in the water, with sneakers on both feet. he asks me what just happened. i tell him. i sit down. he asks us what we can conclude from that....ummm he can't walk on water and he doesn't float. all to make the point that we use theory all the time. also, he gave us signs that say "swoooooooosh!!!" and if we don't hear something or understand it we just are supposed to hold them up. amazing. <3 Gov 311. seminar in urban politics. pretty good. teacher def knows her stuff. small class. TONS of reading. but hey....worth it. i went to divas. damn. i missed the drag queens so much. Jujube and Phena (Fena?) are so fucking awesome. keely got a bracelet from someone over 21 so that was pretty sweet. i may get a babysitting job. elizabeth has had too many offers so she e-mailed me to see if i was interested. that'd be great....i mean i have quite a bit of money saved up from summer...and during breaks i'm going to work in boston but some extra money is always nice. as for the community service. i haven't talked to Mela. I may really plead my case and try to get out of it. I do have a lot on my plate. my first seminar, an intensive language, and a lab stats class. plus if i'm working....i dunno. we'll see.... having my own room is also pretty great. i haven't decorated the walls yet cause i haven't had time....but it's cute...i bought a new bedset...towels....oh and sweet speakers and a subwoofer that kicks all other subwoofers asses. kanye never sounded so good. holler. hmmmmm.....theres some good concerts coming. anna nalick, rufus wainwright, jonatha brooke...yay! i also think i'm getting a parking decal so i wont have to sneak my car all over cmapus. this weekend includes: massive organization of my life, schoolwork, room, etc. MEGAN'S 21ST B-DAY!, wal-mart run, GYM hopefully and some non dining hall food at some point. mmmm quiznos. alright. byez.

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